The Improper Adoptee: Light A Candle For Candace....

Friday, November 19, 2010

Light A Candle For Candace....

They cry in the dark, so you can't see their tears
They hide in the light, so you can't see their fears
Forgive and forget, all the while
Love and pain become one and the same
In the eyes of a wounded child
Because Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you know that their little lives
can become such a mess
Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh
Because Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you know that their little lives can become such a mess
Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh
No, Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell Is For Children
Hell Is For Children

And Hell IS Attachment Therapy..........

Sorry all you nutjobs out there, like Jeane Newmaker, Connell Watkins and Julie Ponder, but you can not take an Adopted child who ALREADY LIVED WITH HER NATURAL MOTHER AND REMEMBERED HER and physically force her to beleive her Adopted Mother gave birth to her, and verbally abuse her and cut her down because she fights you.
It is wrong imo, to do the same to Adoptees Adopted as infants or Adopted from another country as they all know reality is they were carried inside another woman, ESPECIALLY WHEN THAT CHILD IS TOLD HE OR SHE IS ADOPTED. DUH....GOD. GET SOME SMART PILLS......
"Rebirthing Therapy" or "Attachment Therapy" is nothing but a gateway to push Adoptees into a psychotic mindset.
And this is bonified child abuse.
Yet this quackery still goes on every day in this country.
And some Adopted children do not survive it.....

PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE TODAY FOR CANDACE. FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAYS SHE HAS MISSED. FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAYS SHE WILL NEVER HAVE. WHEN I BLOW OUT MY BIRTHDAY CANDLES TODAY, I WILL BE THINKING OF HER........
AND MY WISH?
THAT IS ONLY FOR CANDACE AND ME TO KNOW........

Candace Newmaker (Elmore)
November 19th 1989-April 18th 2000

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About This Blog:

(FOR INFORMATION ABOUT THE COMPULSIVE LIAR AND MENTALLY ILL CYBERBULLY SPOOKIE OR SPOOKIECATS, PLEASE SEE ANNOUNCEMENTS & DISCLAIMERS BELOW AND READ MY POST "I'M LEAVING BLOGGER" (March 2010) (FOR IMPORTANT INFORMATION ABOUT THE CORRUPT ADOPTION INDUSTRY PLEASE CHECK OUT MY ENTIRE SIDEBAR!

Despite my URL, abolishadoption, I am not against Adoption. The reason I choose to use this, is because I am against The Closed Adoption Record System and the lack of laws that protect Adoptees in Open Adoption. So therefore, the link to my blog means abolish Adoption LAWS...as I realize of course that there are children in this world who need a home and adults to take care of them. And although, I think it best, not to kick out a member of one's family through Adoption, (especially due to the "bastard" status) there are times when a child has no living relatives, or only has relatives that are not physically able to care for them. I know too, that there is a small minority of selfish females from the past and who relenquish now, that really did and do not want to raise the babies or toddlers they have made, and prefered to put them up for Adoption, hence my pic below, Adoption Hurts Babies) BUT, since that is hurtful enough to a child, the child does not deserve more pain by not being able to know the name of his or her family line, which is the result of Closed Adoption and Open Adoption gone wrong. What irks me as well, is the attitude towards women who conceive out of wedlock, the lack of forgiveness shown them, the incorrect belief that just because an unmarried pregnant women does not have a lot of money when she gives birth, she should pay for that by giving away her own flesh and blood. Life changes. Situations can improve, single parents CAN make money or marry later and I do not believe Church Clergy, Social Workers, Adoption Agencies or some women who can not have their own children (who manipulate fertile females to give them their infant that they want, who Adopt children literally stolen off the street in other countries not caring that this has happened, or who Adopt a baby from a woman who was coersed into relenquishment, who wanted her child) have a right to interfere in one's life path or the lessons they will learn while traveling on it. It is wrong in my opinion to separate family members to benefit other people. It is also wrong for any child to be told they are not allowed to know who gave birth to them, along with the withholding of the identities of other blood related family members. No child should have to suffer emotional distress due to this, so some adults can parent. Adoptees are capable of loving their Adopted Parents AND want to know who brought them into this world at the same time. And if an Adoptee loves one or both of their Adoptive Parents, wanting a relationship with their Real Parents or needing to know who they are for identity closure or due to needing their medical history will not make them love an Adoptive Parent any less. I wouldn't love my Adoptive Father any less or recognize what an excellent Grandparent he has been to my natural daughter, just because I had legal access to facts pertaining to my heritage and my birth. Nor would I appreciate any less all he has done for me, and finding out who I am related too by blood would never make me walk away from him, or care for him if he ever needed me too. Everyone in the world is interested about from whence they came, the popularity of genealogy websites are proof of this, and we Adoptees are normal human beings like everyone else, and want the same information about who we are, like everyone else. We Adoptees also need our OBC's (Original Birth Certificates), so we are able to get passports and renew driver's licenses without being treated like terrorists or criminals which is beginning to happen since 9/11, as we only have an Amended Birth Certificate to show. Love is sharing. Love is truth. Love is freedom. And with these thoughts in mind, please join me as I along with many others, try to change the oppressive and unfair laws that have been imposed, without our permission on Adoptees since 1951.

ANNOUNCEMENTS & DISCLAIMERS

IF YOU WERE REFERRED TO THIS BLOG, DUE TO THE BEYOND BRUTAL CYBERBULLY/CYBERSTALKER (& HATEFUL SOCIOPATH, PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIC) NAMED SPOOKIE OR SPOOKIECATS (MYSPACE WEST HEMPSTEAD AND LONG BEACH NY AKA: MITTENS THE CAT) PLEASE BE ADVISED THAT AMY BURT AND I HAVE BEEN VICTIMS OF HER HORRIFIC CYBERABUSE/CYBERTERRORIZING, FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS. (THE ABOVE PICTURE IS BEING USED BY SPOOKIE TO THREATEN MY LIFE AND INTIMIDATE ME. SHE SAYS QUITE CLEARLY ON A TROLL CATS FORUM SHE USED THIS IMAGE IN A BLOG POST ABOUT ME AND I HAVE THAT THREAD BURNED ON A CD). ALL OF THIS STARTED WHEN I JOINED MYSPACE. I MADE A DUAL PROFILE THAT SPOKE OUT AGAINST COMPANIES THAT TORTURE ANIMALS AND THE CLOSED ADOPTION INDUSTRY. BOTH ABUSIVE INDUSTRIES. I WANTED TO EDUCATE ANIMAL RIGHTS ACTIVISTS ABOUT HOW ADOPTEES ARE DENIED OUR ORIGINAL BIRTH CERTIFICATES AND ADOPTION ACTIVISTS ABOUT HOW INNOCENT ANIMALS ARE TREATED CRUELLY FOR PROFIT. SINCE THERE IS A SIMILARITY. AS BOTH ADOPTEES AND ANIMALS ARE TREATED BADLY BECAUSE BOTH ARE SEEN AS COMMODITIES. I THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD WAY TO TRY TEACH PEOPLE ABOUT TWO PROBLEMS IN THIS COUNTRY AT ONCE. I WENT ONTO ANIMAL RIGHT FORUMS TO TRY TO LEARN MORE WAYS TO HELP ANIMALS. AND UNFORTUNATELY, I MET SPOOKIE ON ONE OF THEM. SHE INITIATED CONTACT WITH ME. I HAD NEVER SPOKEN TO HER BEFORE. SHE SENT ME AN EMAIL TO MY MYSPACE TELLING ME SHE DID NOT LIKE MY DUAL PROFILE (CONCERNING THE ADOPTION INDUSTRY) AND I SHOULD CHANGE IT. I FELT INSULTED AND HURT BUT REPLIED TO HER POLITELY. (AND SHE HAS POSTED MY RESPONSE COMPULSIVELY ON HER 3 CYBERBULLYING BLOGS SHE HAS PUT UP TO EXPLOIT AND HUMILIATE ME). WE CORRESPONDED A FEW MORE TIMES, ALTHOUGH I DID NOT WANT TO TALK TO HER BECAUSE I HAD A VERY BAD FEELING ABOUT HER WHEN SHE FIRST CONTACTED ME, BEFORE I EVEN READ HER EMAIL. THEN I RECEIVED ANOTHER EMAIL FROM HER. OPEN ADOPTION RECORD ACTIVISTS ON THE INTERNET KNOW FULL WELL THAT AS THEY SPEAK OUT AGAINST THE CHURCH, THE SOCIAL WORKERS AND THE ADOPTION AGENCIES THE GAME THAT IS SPEWED ON THEM IN RETURN. FROM THESE VERY SOURCES. THERE ARE ADOPTIVE PARENTS WHO WANT US DENIED ALL OUR BLOODLINE INFORMATION AS WELL, AND THEY ALSO JOIN IN TO KEEP US IN THE DARK. ONE OF THE GAME PIECES ALL OF THEM LOVE TO USE IS THE BIRTHMOTHER PRIVACY LIE. ANOTHER ONE IS THAT ALL SINGLE MOTHERS ARE CRACK ADDICTS. THEY LIE AND OVEREXAGERATE ALL THE TIME TO TRY TO SILENCE US. WHEN SENATOR PAULA BENOIT GOT ALL THE ADOPTION RECORDS OPENED IN MAINE, AND THE STORY RAN ON MSNBC, I COULD NOT BELIEVE SOME OF THE COMMENTS I READ. ONE WOMAN EVEN HAD THE GAUL TO SAY TO SENATOR BENOIT, SHE WAS A BAD LITTLE GIRL. A BAD LITTLE ADOPTEE. AND SHE HAD A LOT OF NERVE TO INVADE HER MOTHER'S PRIVACY. THE FORMER SENATOR IS A SOPHISTICATED, CLASSY AND INTELLIGENT WOMAN IN HER LATE 50'S AND DID NOT DESERVE A SINISTER REMARK LIKE THAT SPEWED ON HER. SPOOKIE'S EMAIL TO ME WAS REMINISCENT OF THE MIND GLICH'S FORCED ON ADOPTEES EVERY DAY ONLINE AND OFF. SHE WANTED TO TELL ME OF HER FRIEND WHO WAS ADOPTED BECAUSE HER MOTHER WAS A CRACK ADDICT IN THE MID 70'S WHEN I KNEW THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS CRACK BACK THEN. I FELT LIKE SHE WAS TRYING TO CON ME, MOCK ME AND SINCE SHE HUNG OUT WITH OTHER TROUBLEMAKING TROLLS ON ANIMAL RIGHTS FORUMS, LIKE A GIRL NAMED "MISS CHAINSAW" WHO MAKES FUN OF ANIMAL ABUSE, I DID NOT TRUST SPOOKIE AT ALL. SO I DID NOT REPLY TO HER. I WAS NOT FEELING WELL AT THAT TIME ANYWAY AND WAS NOT UP TO MORE JABS. I DID NOT HAVE ANY CONTACT WITH SPOOKIE AT ALL UNTIL SOMETIME LATER WHEN I MADE A POST ON ANOTHER ANIMAL RIGHTS FORUM ABOUT A VEGAN FROZEN DESERT CALLED SO-DELICIOUS BEING MARKETED UNDER THE TRADER JOE'S LABEL AT TRADER JOE'S. IT WAS A DEAL THE TRADER JOE'S COMPANY MADE WITH THE MAKERS OF THIS PRODUCT. I WANTED TO INFORM PEOPLE OF THIS SO IF THEY WENT INTO A TRADER JOE'S LOOKING FOR IT THEY WOULDN'T THINK TRADER JOE'S DIDN'T CARRY IT ANYMORE. IT IS A VERY GOOD PRODUCT AND I THINK PEOPLE SHOULD EAT AS MANY VEGAN FOODS AS THEY CAN. (AND NO, I AM NOT A VEGAN, AND I NEVER SAID I WAS A VEGAN, THIS IS JUST ANOTHER LIE SPOOKIE PUSHES, INDICATING I SAID I WAS AND THEN BASHES ME FOR NOT FOLLOWING THE PROGRAM). AFTER I PUBLISHED MY INFORMATION ABOUT TRADER JOE'S SPOOKIE BEGAN CYBERBULLYING ME. AS I EXPLAIN IN MY LAST POST "I'M LEAVING BLOGGER". SHE WAS VERY MEAN TO ME AND STARTED MAKING FUN OF WHAT I WROTE, HOW I WROTE IT, WHILE INDICATING I WAS CRAZY AND STUPID. I HAVE HER COMMENT BURNED ON A CD AS WELL. I RESPONDED TO HER AND WAS NOT RUDE BACK AT ALL AND IN RETURN SHE BEGAN TO START SWEARING AT ME SOME MORE AND REARED INTO ME LIKE A RABID PITBULL. I FELT VERY HELPLESS AND VULNERABLE SO I FOUGHT BACK. I HAVE BEEN ABUSED IN MULTIPLE WAYS BY MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AND I FELT A NEED TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF. SPOOKIE BEGAN TO GET OTHER PEOPLE ON THAT FORUM TO PICK ON ME AS WELL WHILE I ALSO HAD PRO-CLOSED ADOPTION RECORD TROLLS ON MY BACK TOO BECAUSE I AS A MOTHER I DID NOT LIKE HOW THEY WERE PUSHING AND PROMOTING SINGLE PREGNANT WOMEN TO GIVE THEIR BABIES UP FOR ADOPTION BECAUSE THE CHILD FEELS REJECTED AND BECAUSE OPEN ADOPTION IS CORRUPT AS THERE ARE NO LAWS TO PROTECT NATURAL MOTHERS OR ADOPTEES AS ADOPTIVE PARENTS CAN CUT OFF ALL CONTACT AT WILL AFTER PROMISING CONTACT WHILE THE CHILD IS GROWING UP. AS AN ADOPTEE I KNEW THE PAIN AND FEAR INVOLVED IN WONDERING WHO MY NATURAL PARENTS WERE AND I WAS SICK OF "BEEMOMMIES" ON THE INTERNET STEAMROLLING OVER AND DISCOUNTING THE FEELINGS OF ADOPTED PEOPLE. I LEFT MYSPACE AND STARTED THIS BLOG, INCLUDING ON IT A LIST OF ADOPTION TROLLS AND WHEN SPOOKIE SAW THIS BLOG SHE BEGAN SENDING ME A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF BULLYING, SINISTER, THREATING, AND PSYCHOTIC COMMENTS. I STILL HAVE 85 OF THEM IN MY INBOX. (THIS IS EXPLAINED IN DETAIL IN "I'M LEAVING BLOGGER"). I TOLD AMY BURT WHAT WAS GOING ON AND SHE OFFERED ME HER BACK, BECAUSE I NEEDED SOME SUPPORT AS SPOOKIE WAS FREAKING ME OUT AND MAKING ME FEEL LITERALLY ILL. SPOOKIE THEN BEGAN TO SERIOUSLY CYBERABUSE AMY TOO. SHE ALSO BEGAN TO CONTACT OTHER BLOGGERS WHO WERE LINKED ON THIS BLOG, BOTH ADOPTEES AND NATURAL MOTHERS AND BEGAN TO SPAM THEM AND SEND THEM A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF INCREDIBLY INSULTING COMMENTS. SPOOKIE THEN PUT UP A BLOG ABOUT MYSELF AND AMY BURT TO TRASH US, WHILE MAKING 2 OTHER ONES. SHE ALSO MADE A MYSPACE GROUP TO CYBERBULLY ME BUT AMY BURT CONTACTED MYSPACE AND THEY TOOK IT DOWN. THEN SHE BEGAN TO TRY TO GET EVERY BLOGGER IN BLOGGER ADOPTIONLAND TO GO AGAINST ME. IF THEY WOULDN'T SHE WOULD BEGIN TO CYBERBULLY THEM. AFTER THIS SHE BEGAN SENDING ME COMMENTS TRYING TO BLACKMAIL ME INTO TAKING DOWN THE LIST I HAD UP BY THREATENING TO PUT MY NAME, ADDRESS, AND PHONE NUMBER ALL OVER THE INTERNET, WHILE LINKING MY NAME WITH LIES. (I STILL HAVE SOME OF THESE COMMENTS IN MY INBOX TOO). I RESENTED BEING INTIMIDATED BY HER SO I LEFT THE LIST UP AND DUE TO THIS SHE SENT ME ANOTHER COMMENT LETTING ME KNOW SHE KNEW WHO I WAS AND I KNEW FULL WELL SHE FOUND OUT BY HACKING ME. SHE HAD DONE THAT TO ME ON MYSPACE. CONSTANTLY DELETING MY PROFILE WHILE OTHER FAKE PROFILES WITH MY MYSPACE NAME SURFACED. BECAUSE I FELT SHE WAS SUCH A TERRIFYING AND AGGRESSIVE BULLY I CALLED HER PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT, THE JOHNNY AGENCY WHICH SHE HAD LISTED ON HER MYSPACE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT HER AND I TOLD THE RUDE MAN WHO ANSWERED THE PHONE THERE WHAT WAS GOING ON AND HE ONLY DIRECTED ME TO JOHN FLETCHER'S VOICEMAIL. THE VERY SAME DAY, AND NOT LONG AFTER SPOOKIE PUT MY CELL PHONE NUMBER ON HER BLOG AND MADE FUN OF ME CONTACTING THEM. IT WAS STRANGE HOW FAST SHE FOUND OUT THAT I CALLED AND I THINK THAT SPEAKS VOLUMES. TO MAKE A 3 YEAR OLD WAR STORY SHORT, SPOOKIE CALLED THE POLICE ON ME FIRST TRY TO LOOK INNOCENT AND LIED ABOUT HER BEGINNING THIS WHOLE NIGHTMARE. SHE HAS GONE ON TO BLAME ME FOR THINGS I DID NOT DO AND EVENTS THAT NEVER HAPPENED, LIKE ME ADMITTING THAT I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT HER BEING INTO DIGUSTING BEASTALITY, OR BEING IN CAHOOTS WITH SOMEONE FROM CANADA, OR THAT MY DAUGHTER'S NAME IS KRISTINA OR THAT I SAID I STARTED CYBERBULLYING HER AND MANY OTHER FALSITIES. (PLEASE SEE "I'M LEAVING BLOGGER"). I NEVER MADE FUN OF HER FATHER HAVING CANCER EITHER. THIS IS A PRIME EXAMPLE OF HOW SHE TWISTS FACTS AND OUT RIGHT LIES. IN ONE OF HER COMMENTS TO TRY TO MANIPULATE ME TO TAKE DOWN THE LIST SHE WANTED DOWN, SHE SAID LONG AFTER SHE FIRST BEGAN HARASSING ME ON MY BLOG THAT HER FATHER HAD CANCER INDICATING I SHOULD JUST REMOVE THE LIST AND FEEL SORRY FOR HER. THIS AFTER TWO YEARS OF SERIOUS CYBERTERRORIZING FROM HER. I THOUGHT SHE WAS FULL OF IT AND I SAID I DIDN'T BELIEVE HER FATHER HAD CANCER, WHICH SHE TURNED INTO MY MAKING FUN OF HER FATHER HAVING CANCER. BUT THIS IS HOW SHE OPERATES.....THE BOTTOM LINE IS THAT SPOOKIE IS THE CREME DE LA CREME OF CYBERBULLIES AND MY ADVICE TO EVERYONE IS TO STAY AS FAR AWAY FROM THIS EVIL, DEMONIC, PSYCHOTIC WOMAN AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. BECAUSE WHAT SHE HAS DONE TO AMY BURT AND I SHE WILL DO TO YOU. SHE THROUGHLY ENJOYS PICKING ON PEOPLE, TRYING TO RUIN SOMEONE'S LIFE AND SHE IS A COMPULSIVE LIAR TO BOOT. AND OBVIOUSLY ALL LINKS THAT CALL AMY BURT AND I DELUSIONAL, PSYCHOPATHS, UNSTABLE, DERANGED, SCHIZOPHRENIC, JEALOUS, ETC, ETC, ETC ARE PART OF THE BULLYING SHE HAS INFLICTED ON US AND NONE OF THESE TERMS APPLY TO US AT ALL. SPOOKIE HAS BEEN ABUSIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET AS WELL, NOT INVOLVED IN ADOPTION AND I DISCUSS THAT IN "I'M LEAVING BLOGGER" ALSO. IF YOU COME ACROSS HER AND SHE BULLIES YOU PLEASE CALL THE POLICE ON HER. SHE NEEDS TO BE STOPPED AND IT IS TIME SOMEONE BURST HER ARROGANT BUBBLE. SHE HAS HURT AND UPSET MANY PEOPLE AND HAS NO INTENTION OF STOPPING. SO PROTECT YOURSELF, AVOID HER LIKE THE PLAGUE AND DON'T LET HER MAKE YOU HER NEXT VICTIM........SHE DOESN'T DESERVE THE SATISFACTION.

STOP PLAGERISM!!!

Quote From "C" One Of The PAP's From The Blog " All We Let In"

(Reader: please be aware, that these two women who wanted to adopt M's baby knew she was a Meth addict and they REFUSED to get her help while she was pregnant, while also getting her ON a prescription for Ambien, which causes birth defects in infants! Can anyone say self-centered, sick, immature and dysfunctional! And they have the gaul to to be ANGRY at M because she won't be giving them her baby now after "all we did for her"!! Go buy a cabbage patch doll C.....all you are fit to parent you manipulative loon!.....)

"People keep telling me I'm a saint for doing all this. It's hard for me to hear that because I don't feel that way. Being this desperate for a baby and having no other options than to do this Infertility/Adoption GAUNTLET doesn't make me a good person. Between you and me, if I was a saint, I'd put M in one of the local rehab programs that helps you get housing and a job. I asked her if she was fully sober, had housing and a job, would she keep the baby? She said of course. I realize that if that happened, M wouldn't necessarily stay on the straight and narrow forever, but I feel like that's what would be best for her. Instead, I can't bear the thought of losing this baby after the hell we've been through for her, and I've asked M to wait until the birth to enter such a program. Please don't judge me too harshly for it!"

OH. THROW. UP.............

(C also said in a post I copied, that M had a warrant out for her arrest in Nevada and they knew about it, but did nothing about it because you guessed it.....THEY WANTED HER BABY! Perhaps I should add criminal to my list of adjectives I use to describe them....)(and if they had turned her in, she could of gotten some help for her drug addiction and been appointed an attorney to help her at least have visitation with her child after she gets clean and or out.....a warrant doesn't mean guilty of what she was accused...but nope. All that matters is that C and E get to Adopt a baby, I mean the hell with the baby's health right?.....that isn't as important as them getting to have a family and pacifying C's baby fever!....and considering what they say on their blog, even if they did Adopt M's baby in Open Adoption, they'd be just the type to cut off contact and take off WHICH IS NOT GOOD FOR THE BABY WHO HAS A RIGHT TO KNOW WHO HER MOTHER IS AND HER LINEAGE FOR HER OWN IDENTITY SECURITY).

Like I said, throw. Up.

And check out their lastest post where they call me mean and crazy! ROTFLMAO!.

I'm quite proud to be their guest of honor....